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Junnies's avatar

my own model is more of a tension-relaxation model rather than biomechanics although there is so much overlap between the two. tension degrades biomechanics, relaxation improves it; poor biomechanics increases tension and improving it leads to relaxation, etc.

my primary source of tension is in my right suboccipital, which I have figured out is likely due to anxiety-overthinking. I noticed that the neck is in charge of 'scanning' for threats, changes, etc, and I noticed its constant movement checking for updates/notifications on my phone and desktop. and from a very young age (as far as I can remember in fact...), my right eye was 'smaller' and sunken in compared to my left. I didn't pay attention much as a child, but when I grew vainer in my teenage years, I noticed it more. anyway, I eventually realised that the cause of this was due to a shitload of tension in my right suboccipital that pulled all the way to my eyeball socket, 'pulling' the eyeball inwards. I am sure this is why many people have sunken eyes, especially when stressed. the stress of the neck-suboccipitals literally pulls their eyes into their skull.

the rest of my face was not that obviously asymmetrical but the eyes were very obviously so, especially in photos. my left side was wide open, radiant, brimming with aliveness whilst my right eye was closed, tense, sunken, dull. as I did my tension-discharge practice, my right eye very quickly became more 'prominent', open, softer and more relaxed. and since the eyes are such a significant part of the face, I thought I looked so much more attractive and 'balanced' than before.

the other parts of my face may have changed but nothing as noticeably and prominently as my eyes. overall, i think there is a slight 'widening' - I thought my face would look a bit narrow in the past especially if my hair(style) was a certain way, but in the last few weeks, its seems more squarish. my shoulders also look wider. the difference seems so slight that it should be barely perceivable, but somehow, slight differences in the shoulder seem particularly noticeable, perhaps because they frame and tailor the rest of the upper body such that differences that the conscious mind doesn't register is in fact clearly noticed by the subconscious. ever since I noticed my body compensations, I stopped all resistance training, and my body fat levels look to be about the same, but somehow, the body fat just seems more distributed so that I look leaner and 'wider' around the shoulders just due to a slight change in frame.

I am in the midst of posting and editing my 'model' after you suggested that I start a substack lol. I will probably include some pictures of my face and eyes when I get around to publishing the complete thing.

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BornAlive's avatar

this makes quite a lot of sense to me. all of your articles do.

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